(WARNING: This blog post may be hard to follow at times due to some rambling on and a few digressions into side topics – therefore seemingly disjointed at times. Please read at your own risk….and enjoy. It made me laugh – I hope you do too – Cheers, Jane)
I know the constant repetitive sound bite constantly running around in my brain. And referenced in my previous posts. And discussed with various people that likely have a similar theme…. “I don’t have enough time to myself”, “I need more hours in the day”, “I want more time to do the things I want to do for just me”….
…. like blogging, like downloading photos, cleaning (yes I actually crave time to clean these days), like sleeping (yes sweet sleeping), making photobooks (started a few, have yet to actually finish one but it is on my 2012 bucket list), like working out (sooo not happening today but I did run at the gym last night so we’ll let it go), like watching a sweet guilty pleasure nothing show (check check already done tonight… and yes I will admit a slight attachment to a certain set of Real Housewives shows and perhaps Millionaire Matchmaker that perhaps I do tape obsessively on my PVR… along with intelligent shows like Law and Order of course)…phew. Ok anyways to finally say it… just “ahhh sweet time” to do whatever I please type of time.
Now…. as I sit here writing this blog, that is exactly what I have (insert singing angel sound here). It is Friday night and well Aidan, my 2 year old, is already fast asleep in bed – crashed to be more accurate… at gasp! 6:15pm! (more on this further down) and I really can do whatever I want.
It is peaceful, the dog is snoring on the landing, I just watched my PVR’d Millionaire Matchmaker (yay new season on SLICE just started – love it!)… right ok back to the topic on hand… where was I?
… oh yes… peaceful, quiet, house to myself, ET Canada is on in the background (really…who doesn’t do this as a background filler when there is nothing really on), the fireplace is on, I have a cozy blanket on my lap and I am finally typing again on my blog – which I have been aching to get to. “Ahh sweet time” – just what I wanted.
So… how is this going? Well I am happy and very much feeling relaxed and I am writing on my blog …but… well it is only 7:30pm and I miss the crazy of my son running around, and the bedtime routine, and the potty requests after he is in bed…and I really missed him yelling mummy and running at me, then leaping into my arms for a hug when I get home after work!
… Because today… he didn’t want to nap as it turned out and was asleep before I even turned my truck off in the garage after work. He was so tired after his great day with his dad that he had fallen asleep on the way home. So I left him to lie on the couch and rest for a few more minutes while I made dinner and then carried on innocently thinking he would surely wake up to eat…
yeah… so that didn’t work out so well.
…I had everything ready – fish fingers, grilled and seasoned asparagus and zucchini, and of course some vegetable infused KD (first time trying it) – what kid doesn’t wake up for some KD? – and so now I make an attempt to stir, wake, rouse, try and get him to wake up for dinner.
….Crying, flopping, more soft crying, asleep on my shoulder… “wake up it’s time for dinner, I have noodles for you”, sleepy head, managed to sit him in his chair, flopping and oops big tear drops down his cheeks, “oh dear…out of it”.
huh…asleep in his high chair….
ok this is not going so well. I am thinking bed is a smarter option… loving sigh… picked him up, took him upstairs and plopped him into his bed, sang a song for oh about half a second, and he completely crashed out again. 6:15pm. Yup crashed, done, finished – totally fast asleep! More loving looks, goodnight kiss on the forehead… ok then.
Downstairs I go…
I guess I’ll put his dinner away in case he wants it later… I stare down at my neatly cut up fish and veggies, and the orange glow of the KD, and think – (and here goes the commercial plug that is totally of my own doing) – ahhh thank goodness for my Rubbermaid non stain storage containers right now because I literally can put a lid on this and pop it in the fridge – loving it. How easy was that ! No fuss, no mess – and stored neatly away in a lovely container that won’t stain, won’t smell and can be heated up later if he wakes up. Oh and it looks pretty too (as the non staining version has a fancy swirl pattern). I have to say – I bought these for their marketing and packaging – the promise of no stains and pretty swirls….because I truly despise smelly, old or stained plastic storage containers that get all scratched and grimy.
I found these a year or so ago and they have completely lived up to the promise and more – for real.
They are a little more expensive but I bought them on sale at London Drugs originally and haven’t looked back – I would get at least 4 more sets if I had room. And I digress further… I actually also use them for bowls for Aidan for spaghetti and meatballs, or anything really, because the high sides make it easy for him to get to his food as he pushes his spoon or fork around in his oh so coordinated 2 year old way, and so important…the food doesn’t fall out over the side (I find alot of the kiddie plates and bowls are just not quite what I need – they seem to be either too small or have no sides or have dividers… and are just not working for right now – these fit perfectly). Plus like tonight’s example – when needed – you just pop the lid on and store it without having to do any transferring – and tonight it means one less dish to clean. Oh and I also love them for work for my lunches, and for storing soup or leftovers. Then when you are done with them they store nicely and the lids fit together and underneath them.
They truly do what they said they were supposed to do and are still stain free, streak free and stink free a year later – even after multiple spaghetti sauce storings and dishwasher cycles (insert more singing angels) – and they look brand new to me still – so LOVE these. Yup a big shout out recommendation for Rubbermaid for these. (Totally plugged on my own accord – no payments to endorse this product were made and I am completely hooked on this product after real life testing).
….Ok I think have sidetracked way too much on the Rubbermaid containers.
where was I? ah right yes… missing mummy time tonight…
And here comes part 2 of this blog (or really I guess part 3 after the Rubbermaid mini blog)
This is what I figured out and is the cheezy finale of tonight’s blog post…(not really rocket science but hey… this is my life so I get to think what I want ha ha)…
I was sitting here with my longed for “ahh sweet time” but wasn’t fully enjoying it (yet)… and I realized I was missing the time I get to be “mummy” – usually the time before and after work and then on the weekend. The busy and crazy and fun and noisy and loving time – the “yay it is finally the weekend” time where I get two whole days to fill as “at home me, as wife me, as mummy me, as dog owner me, daughter me, sister me etc.”….time that the long list of competing characters are fighting for outside of work week me.
It is making “me” think about this a little – or maybe a lot (yes I do like to analyze) – and I guess I am realizing that I just need to grab onto and enjoy all the “me times” in my life – whenever I am blessed to have them, planned or unplanned (and perhaps next time not think about it so much).
… another lesson learned or re-confirmed as a parent to remember to go with the flow and also just appreciate all the moments I get to enjoy whenever they happen – even if they don’t fall into the “planned” or “normal” times I expect them to. I shouldn’t be wishing for something and then when I have it, be wishing for something else.
I am pretty sure this is all part of some famous cliche …seizing the moment… seizing the day (remember girls? – Carpe Diem – “Dead Poets Society” – one of the best movies ever!)
….right getting sidetracked again…
This night and this blog is a reminder (again) to take in every minute. Life isn’t predictable – and will always surprise us – even a silly thing like no nap equalling a 6:15pm bedtime – and therefore leading to what I now would say is a blissfully enjoyable “me” night.
Enjoy all the “you” times in your life and run with it.
So now I am now going to hit publish on this blog. Then I am going to watch some pure guilty pleasure TV (anyone else seen Hillbilly Handfishen’?? yeah bizarre – think I’ll find something a little more girly), and finally some “ahhh sleep sweet sleep” (at least til I hear “muuuuummmy”)
Cheers, Jane 🙂
PS. One more parent lesson I think came out of tonight – perhaps we are not quite ready to live without napping quite yet as I am pretty confident that fitting dinner in is usually a good thing before crashing in one’s bed. For tonight, I think I will just laugh and go with it – and enjoy a little time to myself.